| awoke with distaste. |
[Mar. 23rd, 2008|05:41 pm] |
repeat. repeat. repeat. you're getting too old for this. unfold that list and start checking things off for once. go ahead and run away. but the list will always be folded in your back pocket (and you'll know it's there).
i don't feel it or see it. i hear it.
it's not broken.
i am.
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| headlock. |
[Feb. 10th, 2008|11:27 pm] |
you don't know me. you never have.
stop.
thinking.
i'm back. |
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| life is one grand, sweet song, so start the music. |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|08:18 pm] |
i wish i had it all figured out.
today i just feel like giving up.
grow up, right? i guess i don't have a choice.
fireflys rock your soul. and i can't take it anymore!
i just want to go back(the corner 17th). just one more day.
you know. and look at old pictures and talk about the past.
we had no idea. i had no idea.
i miss you.
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| coin operated boy. |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|11:59 pm] |
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coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
but i turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want a coin operated boy
made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend....
coin operated boy
all the other real ones that i destroy
cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i'll
never let him go and i'll never be alone
not with my coin operated boy......
this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
i didnt think so but im still convinceable
will you persist even after i bet you
a billion dollars that i'll never love you
will you persist even after i kiss you
goodbye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it?
i'm dying to lose it...
i want it
i want you
i want a coin operated boy.
and if i had a star to wish on
for my life i cant imagine
any flesh and blood could be his match
i can even take him in the bath
coin operated boy
he may not be real experienced with girls
but i know he feels like a boy should feel
isnt that the point that is why i want a
coin operated boy
with his pretty coin operated voice
saying that he loves me that hes thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why i want
a coin operated boy.
if i could i would give all my friends a coin operated boy. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2006|10:30 pm] |
lately i've been feeling as if i'm walking backwards.
it's hard to keep from falling.
and the lark cried out into the night "oh what a tangled web we weave" but then...
birds don't weave.
cars drive by and here i sit wondering. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2006|03:31 am] |
"What do you do? You laugh. I'm not saying I don't cry but in between. I laugh and I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously. Plus, I look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good."
indeed. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2006|02:12 pm] |
sometimes
i feel
my heart
f
a
l
l
to vague depths
between
words
there are
such spaces
i don't remember....
the pregnant pause of all you will not say and i cannot ask.
sometimes i feel as if im buried beneath the hard cold ground.
what am i even saying?
i'm in it right now.
what gloom! |
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| blah. |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|09:17 pm] |
i feel so empty. but there is something inside of me that wants to create. art. is my passion. i am happy. extremely. i want to wake up early. go to breakfast. it makes the day seem longer. it's a good feeling. i wish i could be with the people i love all the time. daily routines complicate things.
you will make it. |
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| let the good times roll. |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|03:52 pm] |
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my whole body aches today. probably shouldn't try to do flips if it has been over a year since i have done anything physically active. bad choice.
yesterday was a good day. liv came home! and it made my weekend. we had fun. the show in franklin was ok. the ladies we were with made it worth the drive. i can't wait to see them all next weekend! and then we came back home to see livs lover. whitney of course. shes a great lady.
i don't really feel like doing much of anything today.
i need a haircut/color bad. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2006|10:56 am] |
last night i actually did something. i went and saw tristan and isolde with kev-dawg. best movie i've seen in a while. i try to aviod movies that include a love story. but thats almost impossible. love ruins lives.
i couldn't go back to sleep after i got a drunk phone call. i didn't answer. but it was who i hate most in this world. that i don't even hate. he left a message. 'i know you and kevin don't want to talk to me anymore. just pretend i didn't call.' it's all his fucking fault that it had to be this way. kevin said he has to much pride to admit that he was wrong. well get over yourself. you can't always make all your problems go away by ingoring them. i don't think i can ever forgive him either. he fucked up big.
so, is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
have another drink and drive yourself home.
i hope there's ice on all the roads.
and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.
everyone's caught on to everything you do (and i can't let you, let me down again) |
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| today. |
[Jan. 19th, 2006|11:21 pm] |
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i did a whole lot of nothing today. someone needs to take my laptop away. i can't wait to move out of this town. i will miss it...and probably feel out of place anywhere else. but i think i'm ready. to move on. sometimes i feel like my everyday is pointless. maybe i need to grow up a little bit. do something. but what? |
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[Jan. 19th, 2006|06:38 pm] |
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so...liv told me to do it. so I DID IT! |
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